What a long day!

We had Play Date today, it was OK. I guess I wasn't really in the mood to do anything, but I got over it. I think Bentley is going through another stage in life-Mama says stage 2. This past week has been a rough one with his sleep schedule and feeding. He started eating every 4 hours and sleeping every 2 hours and it changed over night! He now eats every 2 hours...again...and is starting to cat nap. For 2 months old, he shouldn't be "cat napping." I ordered this book "Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child" so I will start that tomorrow. I am hoping it teaches me a few things and to redo his schedule. What happened to the perfect schedule? I am praying that we have just this rough week and thats it. I am blessed that he has slept throughout the ENTIRE night!

 Bentley met another friend today, Grant. Grant is my friend Anna's son who just turned a month old-YAY! FINALLY a boy! I am attaching a picture-he looks way bigger than what he really is in his Play Date pictures.Tomorrow, we are walking the Swamp Rabbit trail to get toned and back in shape. I have given up trying to lose weight and all that crap. I am happy with Bentley and don't need anything else stressing me out. I will never be back where I was and I need to face it. 

Grant and Bentley

I am trying to keep myself busy while the Hubs works, so the more things I do-better off I am. Well, the Hubs made No Bake Cookies tonight, so I'm hopping off have one with a glass of milk! Have a good night! 

Megan

An eventful day...

Today was a pretty eventful day. Slept in which felt really good and cleaned our room. Now, you have to think about this for a second-the Hubs, Me, and Bentley all three share a room...staying at the parents house. We are building an apartment downstairs in the garage, so while that is taking place-we are living in my old room. Went to dinner with the Packs then went to visit the Hudsons. We had the movies in mind (I have a free ticket which expired today), but they said they didn't care about expired tickets-COOL! That means the Hubs and I could possibly TRY and have a date night sometime, yeah right! Bentley was fussy again today, why? It's been raining two days in a row, so maybe that has something to do with it? Fell in LOVE with an outfit at Babies R Us 'Little Cowboy' and had to buy it!

  Remember my blog from a few days ago about getting portraits done? Well, I FINALLY have them! I will give a sneak peak until tomorrow-hopefully.

I know this blog is short; I'm going to give you a break since the last couple were long. You guys have a good night and will see you back here tomorrow!



Megan

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Megan

Blessings my way...

Rain, I LOVE IT! Fall is officially here! It's been 64 degrees, windy, and rainy-my kind of weather. It's hard to believe that the weekend is already over, Bentley and I enjoyed it. It was Mommy and son day...well, that's everyday, lol. We went to Church this morning, sermon was good-then went shopping...for Daddy. Daddy had to go to Lowes to get a few things for his job this week, went to Wal-Mart, grabbed lunch, and back home. I enjoyed myself with my family today, miss those days.

 Do you ever have random dreams that REALLY make you think? Last night I dreamed about My Grandpa Ben and Uncle James. It was very weird. My Grandpa died when I was one, so I do not remember him, so his brother practically took is place, Uncle James. I wish that God would have given Papa more time for me to get to know him, he and I would have gotten along well. Uncle James and I were very close before he passed away, I use to take him cookies and coffee every 2 weeks and as we ate our Sugar cookies (I hate sugar cookies) we would talk about football and horses. My dream took place in a bright room, I have no idea what it looked like. Papa and Uncle James were sitting in a red velvet chair (like you would see at a Church), looking like they did in their younger days. I walked into the room and Uncle James had a BIG smile on his face and said, "Megan, you still riding those horses?" Embarrassingly, I had to say, "No, I haven't been on since before I was pregnant with Bentley, but I'm getting back on within a week or two." Yes, I felt ashamed in the dream because he loved to hear what kind of horse story I would share. My Papa had a serious face, but I couldn't stop looking at him. He was very handsome with beautiful eyes. Uncle James still smiling said, "Come sit over here and let me tell you about your Papa. We are doing great." The dream ended. That's it-just flat out ended and I woke up. I don't understand it, but I feel like God gave me the chance to be introduced to my Grandfather again, but to actually remember it. I've always wish to get to know him, but God had greater plans. He reminded me so much of Uncle Barry and Daddy. Mama said when you dream of a deceased family member, you have good blessing coming your way. I miss them both so dearly, but Uncle James filled my empty spot. I miss him so much, but we will soon meet again. I visited this website Dream Moods  to figure out what the dream meant and it said, "I am lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies..." 

Share with me your input and let me know what you think. 

Bentley has been fussy the past 2 days, which is very odd. His nose is still stuffy and draining, so I know that has a part in it. I wish he would get to feeling better. The Ped Dr. says he is teething, but I'm not so sure. I can feel a roughness on his gums, so maybe he is. God has blessed Christian and I so much, Bentley is our little blessing. Funny to mention this, but when I am in the worst mood I could possibly be in-I can look at him and just smile. Of course he smiles back now which that just makes my day. He's a sweetheart. :) Well, I am hopping off-warming up last nights leftovers! Have a good night! 

Uncle James and I (Bentley was in the oven). 

Megan

Discouraged

I wasn't able to blog yesterday, I was too busy. I didn't have a good day yesterday, nor today. It all started out so stupid...over diapers. I had asked Christian to get the size 3 diapers out of the attic, so I could see if they would fit Bentley (his 2's are getting tight). He didn't want to, so I had said, I will get size 3's and if they don't fit then we will go buy more 2's (because I was going shopping anyway). He got upset, fussed, and called me a "spoiled brat." Now, he NEVER calls me names much, but since his mom loves to call me "spoiled brat" and other names I can't post-she has rubbed off on him. I know hate is a strong word, but that's how I feel towards her. God is supposed to be the center of our marriage, but SHE is the center of ours because Christian let her in. I don't know where the Christian I met 2 years ago is, but I miss him. He has put MIL first almost every time, I have become bitter. I thought I was his wife...
After he called me that, I decided that Bentley and I would go shop ourselves because I hate feeling put down. I had a whole day planned out for Christian and I, I miss having a day with him. I have planned 3 nice date days with him and either he ruined them or MIL did by running her mouth. It has been almost 4 months since he and I have had a date together. I have to begg him to do something with me and then it never works out. I know it's not always his fault, but I feel like there is something wrong with me or I'm not fun anymore. I'm tired of begging my husband to spend time with me and I'm not going to do it anymore.
  So when I went shopping to go buy ME some jeans, I felt spoiled and selfish for doing so. When someone calls me something, I become self-conscious. I am still in maternity clothes because I haven't lost my baby weight and even the maternity clothes are getting too tight! All I want is to be OUT of maternity clothes because I feel so discouraged because I'm not like my friends who have dropped back down to pre-baby weight. I am not comfortable with my figure-nor do I even want to be intimate because I feel like Christian thinks I'm gross. He says I'm not and he loves me the way that I am, but when he puts his Mom first and tries to angry me, I can't help but feel that way. Instead of getting me clothes, I bought him 3 pairs of jeans...he needed some anyway.


Today, we went to Cow Patty Bingo...boring. After that, Bentley has decide to fuss for hours straight! I don't know why-maybe he is feeling my emotions...? Although, I am uncomfortable with myself and stressed, I go grab the No Bake Cookies I baked. I am a very emotional eater as it is, and here lately-all I want to do is eat. Bentley first and then food. I feel like I have no one to turn to or talk to anymore, which that includes my Husband. I am happy, I really am, but I grudge with my hurt. So when I brought the cookies and sat down, opened the computer to blog, Daddy makes a rude comment about me eating junkfood/chocolate. Instead of beating around the bush-just tell me it makes you sick to watch me eat and I need to lose weight. I hate when people make comments to you about what you eat. I feel like I want to eat in a closet because I don't want anyone watching me because it's embarressing. When I feel unimportant, food is my comfort. I threw the cookies in the trash and went through my closet of what I can and can't wear. Let's just put it this way-I could fit all of my clothes in 3-4 closets...now, I have MAYBE 20 things that could fit me. Goodwill is on my list to stop at tomorrow.

Sorry for venting, just had to talk to someone. Have a good night.



Megan

Good Morning!

Good morning my blog friends! Last night at 11:09 became Autumn! I am so thankful that Summer is coming to an end. Today will be a busy day for me! I'm starting my morning off right with a cup of coffee and hoody-loves it. Kayla is doing Bentley's photoshoot today to start her portfolio for her photography. We will end the picture taking to a nice lunch possibly downtown Greenville. The weather is supposed to be beautiful 'top down weather,' so hopefully it won't be too hot. I had Bentley's 1 week portraits done by J Catherine and I am very pleased with her work as well. She will be doing Bentley's 6 month portraits, so I can't wait to share that with ya!
 Have you ever heard of Cow Patty Bingo? Every year, the Lions Club have a Cow Patty Bingo (kind of like a festival) and it's to raise money for kids who need glasses. My dad usually takes his Cow for the Bingo part. They spray paint squares with numbers inside a corral (Bingo squares) and let the cow walk around in there. You can buy raffle tickets for $5 a piece... When she poops, whoevers number she poops on, wins $500! So now that you get the moral of the festival, I will be baking over 100 No Bake Cookies...lovely.
  I originally have Fire Dept training tonight, but baking has taken top priority for this week. Not sure how I'm going to get the cooking started with Bentley because he seems to know when I'm busy...and doesn't want to be put down. How about the RECALLS on Similac formula? I don't even know why there is a recall with beetles and insect parts anyway! Do you realize what is really in our food and what is blended in with everything we don't know about? Don't fret! A little Bug Juice is good for the belly :) Thankfully, Bentley is breastfed...there isn't any recalls with that.

  Well, I'm getting off and fixing to start my day! Hope you guys enjoy this beautiful Thursday! 1 more day until our weekend begins :)


Megan

Happy Fall!

Today is the first day of Fall!! It has been a long day I must say. I am pretty tired from doing nothing. This morning I wake up to a BOOM-Christian broke the bed again. That set my morning off...that's right, I'm NOT a morning person. I got up and started my morning off with little Bentley. As I sit here and type, I'm enjoying a nice hot cup of coffee and relaxing on the couch. Bentley went to bed at 9 tonight and I am taking advantage of it! He usually goes to bed at 10 pm and wakes up at 10 am...sometimes he wakes up at 7 to eat and knock out till 11 am.

  Tomorrow, I am hanging out with my best Kayla, whom is working on her portfolio. She is going to play around with the camera with Bentley and I-so excited! Bentley is a little camera hog anyway, so hopefully he will be eating it up, haha! The picture to the left is Bentley and Tegan (Kaylas daughter), aren't they cute!?!

 I took Bentley out today to see the horses and he wouldn't stop cooing! He loved it! I'm waiting for the day he can sit up on his own because that will be the day that he sits up on a horse (with me holding him of course). I have high hopes and expectations with his future, I can't hardly wait.



Happy Fall Ya'll!


Megan