Bye Bye 17.1!

  Hello Bloggy Friends! I am sitting here watching the 2012 CMT Music Awards--and talking to you! I have 1 week until I drive up to Missouri to see my Hubby! Man! How time has flown went by so slowly! I am so excited, I can't sleep and I feel like I am only making my days go by even slower. Staying busy doesn't cut it anymore! Tonight I went to the gym with my best friend, Mandie, and we ventured to try a new class. It was fun, but I felt sick and pukey 13 minutes into it! I almost quit, but I kept going--I managed, LOL! I've been dreading weighing myself because I have crashed my diet the past 3 weeks! I'm an eater who is trying to shed pounds. I can honestly say that eating healthier and working out is paying off. It's not easy and I hate having to work hard for something you want (i.e., losing 30 pounds). I was 134 before 2 babies, 124 when I got married. Sickening isn't it? Well, it is for me. When Hubs left in February, I was 179.9 pounds. Today (15 weeks later), I now weight 162.8 pounds. That's 17.1 pounds! I'm excited that I'm half way there, but to be honest, I do not feel it and hardly see it. 

1.5 weeks before Hubs left.

8 weeks after he left.

15 weeks after he left. 

 I don't have many body pictures of myself, so please bare with me, lol. I am so insecure and always delete after the pictures are taken. I am one of those girls who strip down butt naked, look in the mirror, and cry. I miss my before baby body and I know I will never see it again, but I am ready to feel comfortable with myself. I know Hubs would say the same thing. He says I look fine the way I am, but I feel nasty. Well, I did. I do feel better about myself. I drive him nuts with all the "I'm fat" remarks I make. Anyway, I figured I would share because if I can do it, you definitely can!

 I am blessed to say that I am happy in my "friend" world. Shocked? I am! I have reconnected with some of my old childhood friends and I couldn't be happier. I may be a desperate Mommy who craves the friend attention, but now that I have someone who I confide in and not to mention CHRISTIANs as well, I'm happy! Thanks Mandie and Britt! Thank you to all the girlfriends and new people I'm reconnecting with. Maybe I should do a shoutout page one day...hmmm! 
 The kiddos are getting big! Can't believe Sawyer is almost 9 months and Bentley is almost 2!!! Where does time go?! I miss them being babies, I miss the newborn smell, the newborn cries, and all the memories you make during pregnancy and the first month. I miss it.
 Well, I'm signing off. I have a book to read and bath to take!

-The Stay at home Mommy who juggles it ALL!