Since my last post...

  Since I have blogged, the stinking site changed their dash board, so I'm lost and a little uncomfortable--hoping I post this post the right way! Haha! So since my last post, not much has changed, literally. Hubby is still gone and I am still lonely after 7 pm every night. The kids are growing up fast and I can't stand it. Where does time go?! Sawyer is now crawling EVERYWHERE and Bentley is a chatterbox. The boys are now at the age to where they fight over the silliest toys and there is never just one babe eating puffs--sharing is something Bentley is learning gradually, lol! 
 Since my last post, Hubs finished bootcamp and is now in AIT training. He is doing so well, seems like he likes it better up there than here ;) We have 3 weeks 6 days left (Not that I'm counting down or anything) until we get to see him, time is going by so slow. I feel like we have been at the 4 week mark FOREVER, literally. Didn't I ask where does time go? It flies by with children, but ever so slow when my sweet Hubby is gone. I think I am driving to Missouri myself to pick him up which will be good because I will get a break from the kids and have like a 'mini date' with him, but whatever the plan is, I'll be happy. I have been living at the gym (at least it seems that way) and lost 11 pounds in 11 weeks. Now I feel like my weight is at a stopping point. Why?!? I am toning up a tad bit, but I honestly thought I would look better than what I do now. I guess maybe I had high expectations for myself, but that's not bad, right? 
 I have been going through a lot lately and I feel like I have become an emotional mess. I don't understand how I can see most of my "friends" all the time when my Hubby is here, but when he leaves, I don't see or hear from most of them. It's like they are my friends for show and when I need them the most, they are no where to be found. I seriously feel like I have to beg them to hang out with me and I finally gave up last week. I had a pity party I guess you could say and deleted them off FB. I deleted every "friend" that was my friend before he left and didn't even care to have anything to do with me when he did leave. That doesn't mean I'm not friends with them, I did tell them what I was doing. I also made it a point that they have my number and know how to get in touch with me when they want to talk. I am almost fed up with FB anyway, I feel like people want to know everything going on in your life, but don't keep up with you in person. Maybe I am too old fashioned, but I like to get together with friends at a coffee shop or even meet up with lunch. What happened to those days? Sometimes I wonder if it's just me, but I honestly can say it's not. 
 I am engrossed in a delicious book called  Fifty Shades of Grey and it's...delicious. I can't put the book down. I actually started reading it before it made headline news and started a whole new scattered controversy. Who cares if the book defines sex and intimate stuff down to the T. I may be learning some new things to show my Hubby in the bedroom, so I am down with it. I tried explaining the book to him and he thinks I am crazy. No one will understand until they read it. Go kindle it and start reading! I am wondering how they are going to make a movie because I honestly don't think there could be a "movie".....maybe more like a porno. I could be wrong, maybe they will tweak it and somehow make a movie into it. I am a HUGE Twilight fan, but I am more into these book than I was with them. I feel like I'm cheating on Edward with Christian Grey ;) LOL! 


Well, I'm off to go watch Greys Anatomy Finale tonight. It looks like it will be good with a shocking cliff hanger *go figure*, so I can't wait until next season already! Ya'll have a good night and see you soon!

 
-The Stay at home Mommy who juggles it ALL!