Emotional...

Can't sleep, so I figured I would blog away my emotions. Every time I have some special occasion, I always think of my Grandmother, Nanny. Especially when it comes to children and family gatherings. Those are two things she loved and stayed devoted to no matter what. She was a woman of God and stood very firm of what she believed in. She always wanted to watch her Grandchildren grow up and have children of their own, but she never did. It is very hard for me to think about her and not cry- I miss her so much. I miss wiping her bright red lipstick off my cheek and making her instant coffee and  thinking I was getting picked on and a "slave". I miss it. I wish so bad she could have met Bentley, she would have loved to squeeze and kiss those cheeks as she did mine. I wished Hubs could have met her before she left us behind, she would have loved him and would be so happy to know that I found someone who will take care of me and love me for me. I miss her bossy little attitude and her gummy mouth-her dentures were to perfect and snow white **who needed them**?? I miss laughing at how she ate ham with no teeth, and her curly hair she always colored, I miss her southern accent, "Hey Debi, let's ride down to the Dollar store, so I can get me some new slippers." Little things that annoyed you so bad then, I miss now. All I have left is stories of her that don't do justice to knowing her. My Mama, Bentley and #2's Mamaw, is a lot like her. When I watch my Mom give and love to my Bentley, it reminds me of Ben and I sitting with Nanny in her recliner with her arms around us loving on us *smacking that red lipstick* and waiting to give us quarters for the ice cream man.


 Thinking bout her so much tonight and wishing she was here to spend a special day with us. I've never met family that was like her. The woman didn't have much, but she made sure she was always there, even if $5 was all she could give. I can only tell Bentley and #2 to cherish your Grandparents because they won't always be here. Absorb each memory of them and just smile. When people speak of their Grandparents, I just smile. God gave me 16 years with her, and those 16 years are cherished in my heart. I just miss her and still love her with all of my heart. I came across her number in my phone earlier and all I wanted to do was just call it, but I couldn't do it. Knowing she is in a better place is exciting because I will soon see her again. I miss you Nanny.


 Going to bed, sorry for the very emotional blog. Goodnight!




Megan