Hello! You there?

This week has consisted of staying home...NOT! Believe it or not, I have gotten out of the house a little bit. I have been forcing myself to get OUT of the house and go to the gym, had supper with a friend and lunch another day, play date with the kiddos, my Mom came and visited today, and tomorrow will be gym and possibly the park. I am trying to speed up time! I'm trying to stay focused and I would love to not think about the time clicking very slowly because I am ready to see my Hubby. I miss him a lot. I keep thinking he's at work and will be home in the morning, but when I turn over in bed to look for him, he isn't there--it sucks. Today Bentley kept consistently asking and crying for "Da-da" and it breaks my heart. I hate it. 
  So yesterday I cleaned my clean house. Did something sound not right in the last sentence? I'm sure it did. My Hubby has been gone almost 2 weeks and my house has stayed spotless...literally. That's also with a 20 month old and a 5 month old. How?!? I told him several months ago that I truly believe that he is the one that messes the up house and yesterday proved my point. I did mention that in a letter I wrote him. ;) It does surprise me because he helps me with a few things around the house, but it's true--he's a slob, LOL! Goodness, I love him! I am a tad bit OCD with a clean house, but I like to make sure it's cleaned almost every other day. I bleach, bleach, and bleach some more. 
  When I feel in doubt, my God, again amazes me. Most of you know that I have been stressed to the max with Hubs gone and Sawyers MRI results. I've been waiting 2 weeks to get results and the woman told me the Ophthalmologist would call me next Wednesday. I sat by my phone all day waiting on the Dr to call. My impatient self blew their phone up today because I was scared to go another day not knowing. The lady told me this morning that the Dr was only in 1 afternoon a week...yes, I did panic. I know he's a surgeon and he has other patients, but like I said--I wanted to know. Finally got in touch with him and Sawyers vision isn't that good (around 40%), Nystagmus, and Albinoid (Albino in the eyes). No, this isn't good news at all, but considering he had an MRI for other possibilities, it's wonderful news. He is going back in 6 months to see if he can 'tolerate' glasses for his vision and darkened lenses for his Albinoid. It is very heart breaking and would rather myself go through it than my own child. He's my baby. I have faith and know that God will heal him. Nothing is impossible for Him and there isn't anything He and I can't handle together. I just wished that I could pick up the phone and call Hubs. 
  I didn't get any response on the Hubby Monday idea, which makes me wonder if anyone ever reads my blog? Hello? You there? Give me some input if you are reading. I hope you have a good night--I'm going to finish watching Idol. See you back for tomorrow's 'Can't Resist Thursday'!

Megan